Thursday, September 12, 2013

Moving Forward...

   Hello everyone. Over the next few weeks I will be making some changes to this blog, basically updating it.  i am still trying to decide on a couple of things I am thinking about. The great news is my body has done some serious healing and after 7 years of nightmarish health, my body is starting to recover and I find myself working like a man with a purpose again. A Purpose I do have. I am going to do whatever it takes to become successful at art. I need to make a lot more money to help with my Daughter Rose's education and just general support, and so I can afford art supplies and an occasion visits with my family.
    This last year has held a lot of good, some bittersweet and some plain horrible memories for me. The bad memories include the end of my relationship of 4 years with someone I cared for very much and her children. An in a bad emotional state I wound up living with a woman and her mother, and these two make the word nightmare look like a children's story. It took me 4 months to get away from there, and while all of this was happening, a problem I have had for about 10 years hit me with a vengeance, a Salivary  Gland-stone. Basically a kidney stone in your neck, and in this case the size of a glass marble. I had to endure it for 6 months before the VA surgically removed the gland from my throat.
     Now the good news. Once the gland was removed, a 10 year old problem with high blood pressure went away. It had been the cause of my Blood pressure issues for all these years. Now, it is perfect. It did take me 2 months to heal from the surgery thought. I had been on antibiotics for almost 7 months, and according to the surgeon, there was a lot of bad stuff in my neck they had to clean out.  My lungs went into spasms and  collapsed during the surgery because no one knew I had COPD and my body did not take well to the tubes be pushed into my lungs after I was out. But now, I am doing much better and feel better that I have in so many years. I've been working very hard in the studio and putting in long days. It's been back before my heart stint since I could work like this, and that was in 2006. So needless to say, I am feeling very positive about my career and my art now. I just have to make it happen.
    Probably the greatest thing that happened over the last year was that i was able to reconnect with my oldest daughter Beverly, and I found out I had a teenage daughter that's mother had told me she aborted her way back when. Amber Rose.  I can't explain why, but I have been a step father in my life and loved those children very much and still do, but when you find out you have children who are your flesh and blood, wow, that changes everything. I even have 2 grandchildren, and I am so very proud of the family I didn't know was out there. This alone made all the suffering I went through worth while. Now, all I can do is think about the future and hopefully being a part of my children's lives. But for the first time I can actually remember, I want to live now and make a better future. You have to understand when I was a young man I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, and back then, they had no good treatments. I remember very plainly the Army doctors telling me I would be lucky to see the age of 25. I was only 19 at the time and my wife was pregnant with my Beverly.  Think about that for a moment. Being told you only had a few years to live and not being able to build a future for the people you loved and not being able to see your child grow up.
    Well, I did survive, but because of that news, I made decisions that changed my life forever and started down a very self destructive path.  18 years later, I finally start to clean myself up from the drugs and alcohol and meet a woman who became pregnant and told me she did not want to have my baby, and told me she was going to abort her. That was the last time I saw her or spoke to her until this last year. I did stay off the drugs, but not the alcohol, and for another 10 years I tried to drink away the pain.  But we all know, that is not the answer and the pain only goes away with time. But I had done the damage to my body. I also had smoked like a chimney  for all those years. Those of you that know me personally that the last 4 years, I have been fighting just to stay alive from all the damage I did to my body, and I have gotten myself back into probably much better health than I could have hoped for. Honestly, last year, before I found out about my daughters, I had gave up and wanted to die. Now I realize that if I had opened that door, I would have never known about my children and grandchildren. Even though at that time, my life seemed like a very dark place with no hope, it turned around and now my life is full of love and happiness. Something I thought was denied me.
    So now, the question is how do I get my life on track again. How can I take the gifts that I was given and use them to build a better future for my family and myself?  Hard work, making the right decisions, and start by crawling, then baby steps, walking and finally running with the pack. But it will take time. All things take money. I know I need to attend large conventions like Gen-con and Illuxcon, but for me to do that, I need to make money to buy a setup, get a vehicle that will work for traveling and carrying the things I need to set up for the shows, and have prints and other items to sell. But the most important thing about it would be to make contacts face to face. I honestly think this will get my career on the right track. In the meantime, work my arshe off and learn all I can and build a portfolio to impress. 

    Making money right now is the hard part. Since I am now disabled, I am very limited to what I can do. Painting is one of the few things i can do to make money, but at this point in time not many people can afford original art or prints, unless I practically give it away, which I can no longer do. So, I just hope that things will change in the near future and one thing I have learned, is that things always come to you when it is time for them. So, we will see. Until next time. Peace and blessings be with you.
For a limited time only, you can buy prints directly from me at great savings over the people who license my work to sell. These 3 prints can be ordered directly from me for $20 each, plus 8$ shipping and handling.  They are printed on 13 x 19 photo paper. You can own all 3 for $50 plus 8$ shipping. No matter how many you order, the shipping is only $8. You can go to my photobucket site for more choices, just make sure you include the name of the print in your order Since I do not have a website set up anymore for this sort of thing, you have to deposit the money into paypal, with the title of the print or prints you want.  Please make sure your address is up to date on your paypal account. You can also send me a pm to let me you made the order and any specifics, such as you want me to personalize them for you. Plus for a limited time I will include a free vintage print of one of my older pieces for you! Thank you.

Friday, August 30, 2013

A rose a bit wilted

Hello my friends,

I've been a little wilted lately.  Spent a good portion of the day this week at the doctor working to get my blood sugar under control.  It looks like I'm going to have to go back on medicine.  I'm not pleased, but you know...I am going to do it, and kick this diabetic crap in the butt so I can get back to doing my art the way I want to.

Speaking of my art!  I've made some major progress on 'Spooner'. 

Here are some close ups, and of you see in the top picture we have the Miley Cyrus tongue.  I'm renaming that pose the "MC HORROR TONGUE" Because it scares the crap out of even me, and look what I paint. 

Here it is in the big version.  A little bit further and I'll be done.  Really happy with how it's turning out and the mood is just as creepy as I wanted it to be.

One more thing before I get off here and get my butt to work...

I have "Pirate's Booty" up for sale on ebay here : Buy my BOOTY  Just two days before it's off, so grab her now, while you still can.

I'll catch you all next week...

May the darkness comfort you,


Friday, August 23, 2013

Chicks with guns and a Rose for the ladies

Hello my friends!

It's been a roller coaster week for me.  I've been chasing sleep this week, and can't seem to get a schedule.  Then a friend reminded me, "Hey, you are an artist, and you don't have to live on a set schedule anymore."  How do you like that?  A total moment of reva-freaking-lation.  So I'm going to be up when I want to be and sleep when I want to and see how that works out for me.

No fear though I've been working steady on a couple of projects that I'll share now.

The first is a continuation of "Spooner" 

For my art friends who follow you can see I am layering it up from the darkest values to the lightest.  
You'll also notice that the umber glazing I did is giving it an "atmosphere". I had to re-draw his arm due to a mistake, but it's fixed and I'm feeling solid about it in general.

That isn't all I've done this week either.  I have one of my sexy ladies going on now too!  

I'm working on this pencil drawing and I have to say I'm drooling.  A tough sexy woman is beyond compare!  

I have a featured Print this week, For all my sins

Take a look, leave a vote, make a comment, and *cough cough8 Christmas is coming ;)

One last thing before I hit the canvas again.  Not too much longer on my ebay auction.  it's going for a steal at the moment.  One day twenty-two hours left as of this posting.  Original oil Pirate ship ebay auction

Alright my friends, it's back to the oil mine with me.  I'll catch you all next week!  If you have any art questions hit the comments, and I'll be glad to answer! 

May the darkness comfort you, 

Sunday, August 18, 2013

A rose on Ebay

Hello my friends,

This won't be a long post.  I just wanted to let you in on what could be a great deal for you. 
I have an original oil painting up on Ebay.  Pirate ship original oil painting

I'll be back on my regular Thursday posts this week! 

May the darkness comfort you,


Thursday, August 15, 2013

A rose you'll never forget to remember

Hello my friends,

Say hello to my new logo!  Indeed, this is me and when you see this new design you'll know it's Nick Rose.  I'm thrilled to be able to share it with you, and let you know my daughters helped me decide on this for my new legal logo for my studio.  I'm thrilled about it, and think this is the best logo I've ever had.

In the next couple weeks I'll be working on and unveiling a new place for people to buy prints of my art.  It's high quality and a couple of my artist friends are using it to get their work out there.  I've asked around and they are impressed with how the art is made and what all is available.  Details to follow when I get things set up.

Speaking of my art...The above picture is the finished drawing, of "Spooner" with an "umber" glazing.  I'm trying it out as something new in my style.  Glazing can be done over the top of a finished painting to change the chroma/hue/tone of a section or entire painting to give it a certain feel.  Doing it under the painting changes depth and texture (some what)  because it changes the hue slightly of the more transparent pigments over it, giving the over all painting it's own feel.  I'm letting this get nice and dry, but will update you on it when I get started in earnest.  The color I used here has a strong impact on middle tones and dark tones, so I'm excited about how it will add to the creepy feel.

Well, that's all for now my friends.  My body is still healing but I am in good shape.  I'm pulling up my Dr. Creep boxers and getting a lot of work done. Until next time...

May the darkness comfort you,